Your wife thinks you are shit. Every once and again she feels sorry enough for you to give you some scratchings, but its few and far between. after all she's only your wife. At this point she has you exactly where she wants you, beneath her and doing anything she says, putting up with anything she does. She gets off on hurting you and humiliating you and the truth is you do too. You can only get off when she tells you about how she fucked other men and how much better they were. You don't know how it ended up being that way, all you know is you love it.